Wow, this last week has been something fierce for me. I have been very stressed & [thank you PMS] very emotional.
Some of you have been following for a while and know a lot about my life. I have been married to Cody for 4.5 years (on Sept. 14th). We have been through a lot. Most of you know what I’m talking about and some of you don’t. That’s fine. I don’t want to recap everything right now, I’ll save that for another post
Last week, I left Cody. *side note: I’m living with my mom right now* I made the decision to pack up my things, and Landon, and move out. It was not a easy decision. I’m sure you’ve heard me say, “I don’t make money blogging.” I do make some, but not much. So when I made the decision to leave, it was not just leaving. I knew I would have to get a “real” job. Which has been nearly impossible so far. Two, yes 2, companies have denied me because of my lack of work in the last few years. Apparently they don’t think that sitting on the computer for hours on end typing, paying taxes on the products I review, advertising & paying taxes on the paid posts I write, constitutes as a real job. That’s fine, really. However, the pompous jerk that interviewed me at GC Services the other day should be kicked in his baby maker. Lack of experience or not, I will not tolerate being belittled by some scrawny, control-hungry jerk. End of story.
Anyways, I’m still job hunting. I’ve got a few things looking up for me, but they could easily fall through. Like GC Services.
On top of all the stress with leaving, I broke my mom’s washing machine the other day. We’re not really sure how, or if it was even me. The water sensor didn’t trigger, causing her entire laundry room & garage to flood. Water was running for probably 30 minutes. Maybe longer. Now, it wouldn’t have been a big deal, except ALL of my stuff was in the garage. Everything from the second set of couches Cody & I owned, to boxes of Landon’s clothes. My scrapbook stuff is completely ruined & everything is wet….still.
We got over it though. I can always buy new scrapbook stuff and wash Landon’s already wet clothes.
The hard part happened today. I had to drop Landon off at his dad’s for the weekend. Yes, Cody will have Landon until Monday afternoon. I have never gone more than a few hours without Landon. Even when family watched him overnight for us, we always dropped him off late & picked him up early.
At first, I thought it would be good to have a little break. I have been super stressed and Landon can sense it. My mom is getting gray hair just because of Landon’s hyperactive-ness and…well, toddler-ness! She loves him and knows it’s not his fault, but I know she’s getting tired :p
So every few hours I have text Cody. I know Landon is fine, but I just worry. He has a new puppy to play with and lots of toys there.
Dinner was really quiet, clean and boring. We ate dinner in like 20 minutes. Now I'm laying in our room & thinking about how quiet it is. It just makes me sad. Do you think he realizes that I'm not there? I hope he misses me, but I don't want him to walk around looking for me. Ugh. I'm just a bag of mixed emotions right now :p
Well, now that I have gotten all that off my chest, I do feel a little better. I still wish Landon was here and not at his dad’s but Landon does love Cody and Cody is a very good father to Landon.
Are you a single parent? How did you manage to enjoy that first weekend?